The 'Other Side'

Ever get the feeling that all of your friends have chosen the 'other side'?

Needed someone to talk to... the manfolk was at work, my usual two confidants were out with an ex who won't be in the same room with me because I 'crushed his heart', my longest term girlfriends are friends with the exhusband so it feels like everything said these days is guarded and measured, a lot of my newer friends that I have gotten close to are really the manfolk's friends that I am getting to know (their loyalties are firmly aligned - he could have sex with a bunch of midget clown hookers and they would protect him to the death to make sure I never found out), just really didn't know where I could go where people didn't have loyalties on the 'other side' of my relationships (or former relationships) and it was kind of sucky and a little scary.

I always have my brother but by time he wasn't busy moving his woman's furniture into storage I didn't want to talk to anyone but the dog.

Thank god for the dog.

Ever have one of those days

Where you just want to disappear?

Tell everyone to fuck off and disappear and be left alone and start a new life?

I'm there and I have a headache to match that feels like midgets are having a war in my skull with full artillery.

Just. Whatever

Cross it off

#5 on the Bucket List - Done and done. I am officially a scuba diver!

So excited. Now to practice in blue water. Making plans a dive or two when we are on the cruise.

87 days away

Floating

We floated the river this weekend. Fun fun fun. Sore and bruised but fun!



Realized as I was trucking along down the river how many more adventures I have had in my recent life. In my old life everything was too expensive, too out of the way, etc. It was partially my fault for not fighting for it. Now, while I have built up a little bit of credit card debt, I do a lot more and have crossed a lot more off of my bucket list than I had in my entire previous life.

Ugh

I have felt like crap for the last three days and just can't seem to shake it. I don't get sick ofter, yes I am accident prone and a bit of a klutz which generates regular soreness and bruising, but I have always had a stomach like a billy goat and rarely don't feel well.

Yeash.

I have got to get better - I gots things to do!

Pet Peeve #6

Small paperclips.

Don't know why but they just piss me off.

Deep thoughts

Ever wonder who would show up to your funeral?

Don't know why but that has been on my mind this afternoon.

Wish I could make sure that people I didn't like don't show. A couple of them just like the attention given to them because they 'knew' the deceased. That crap makes me nuts.

I don't really want a funeral. I want to have every spare body part donated. Cremate me. Then just have a giant party and talk about happy times.

I mean a GIANT party

Taking the leap

Well, I finally bit the bullet and got tv. It was pretty much a condition of the manfolk moving in.

Hasn't changed much for us, still don't really watch too much.

Helps that he brought a big screen TV with him when he moved in. Much better than my 28" eight year old walmart special.

One exciting thing

One exciting thing about crusin' is bacon. All you can eat bacon.

I heart bacon.

Bacon makes everything better (I have a shirt that says so).



24 hour soft serve is awesome too.

I am excited.

Facebook ghosts of the past

So... what do you do about the ex-husband's family and friends who have become 'his' on Facebook? Some of them I like very much, but others I don't really think I'll ever have anything to do with. I do know that the information that goes up on FB gets back to him from some of the stuff that he has said/found out about - and I don't really care. He has staunchly resisted technology - texting (until he started dating, then all of a sudden it wasn't as terrible as he always said), myspace, Facebook, etc. - so he isn't on there (yet) and I know I won't be talking to these folks any time soon so I am not sure whether or not to leave it alone.

Meh. Just something I was thinking about when it was telling me to reconnect with the sister in law I never quite liked because she didn't seem to care about anyone but herself.

It has been decided...

Got tired of fighting the beach bug.

Found a cruise that goes to the Caribbean in October and gave it to the manfolk for his birthday last week. I am so freaking excited that I can barely wait (and yes it is a present for me as well).



Scuba certification weekend one is complete and I didn't drown (and neither did my dive buddy). Just makes me that much more excited. Now to focus on passing class and going to the gym and saving some cash for the what is sure to be expensive bar bill.

The Manfolk

Such a dork. Even now. Still love him.

Happy Birthday to the Manfolk!!

Cheers to a happy birthday and boat drinks all around!

Happy Fourth!

It is a day of fireworks, BBQ and RED WHITE AND BLUE! Also a day to remember those who have served and are still serving our country and protecting our freedom.

Have a happy and safe Fourth of July!!